Sucks tonight. I miss bri all day along. I thought I could go home early and wait for her. But I have to work longer and I will go out later. When I get home, I try to fimd bri. I am glad she answer me before I go out. But she is sad. I am very worried about her. I wanna know what happened and spend time with her make her feel better. But I screw up. She mention Tristan. I am so jealous. She said she still think about go to his place and like him. I am mad. I hang up and go out right away. I know she send me msg straightaway. But I didn't want to see it. I am so jealous she still think about him. I go into the car and hit the handle. I pick my friend up. I drive fast. He is a bit nervous but he didn't know I am mad. Because l am good at pretending myself no matter what had happened. The movie sucks. When I went home my mum blame me I didn't answer the phone. I don't have any patience with her. I go out again. Now I am still outside. I screw everything up. I am so mad at myself. It's hard to choose the right. And every time I choose the wrong way, it seems I am gonna loose everything. I always give them chance. But when I make mistake. Who gives me the chance? I am tired and sick of it. I hate myself. I know I should stay with bri, but I didn't. Even hurt her more. I dont know how to face her and ask her forgive me. There is no one can feel my pain. Because I am always alone.
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