今夜大家不醉就不歸，明早太陽是我的棉被

It's raining heavily outside, so I guess CN doesn't work. I rang him drive me to the army. He said yes right away. I am lucky. When I got there, I just follow the crowd to get uniform, equipment, underwear, etc. Then I get lost. There is someone told me I should go into the day room. There are many people and the officer start to call the roll. I saw an investigator, ChihChiang he broke up with girlfriend and we chat at church 2 weeks ago, said Hi to me and he said it's crazy we met here. There is someone sit next to him is my ex coworker A-Hung, when I was college student. He was handsome before, but now his hair is rare and is fatter. We move to dining hall and I see another friend YuehJin who was my mate when I was soldier. We go to dinner every Chinese New Year. It's awesome I met friends there. A new friend WeiShau, we chat a bit. He is silent and always sleep. He said he is a house decorator. I just know it about him, because he sleep all the time, even now! Weicheng, his bed is above mine. He is A-Hung's friend. I think he is good. We go anywhere together. When we are in line, he stand behind me. There is a rocker stand in front of me who has long hair and long nails. His thumb's nail is about 7 or 8 cm. Crazy.

This morning I saw Bri crying. She feels sad cuz she is always unhealthy. I know she try so hard to keep healthy. I wish her sick can transfer to me. Let me share her pain, disease. She is stronger than other people. When she was at Taiwan, I search many information about diabetes. I wanna know it, so I can help her any time. I miss Bri. I read letter she wrote for me.

Alma 46:12, 20-21. Moroni is smart and is a good leader. He can speak the words powerfully. After I read sciptures iin English version, I more understand what they'd done. Today I called Gwan jiemei ask about the passport. I need to give her my ID card, but I have to bring it when I go to army. It's annoying. I can't talk to bri and can't see her for many days. It's such a long day for me. I will bring the letter she wrote and photo at my side. I hope I can get by. I will have my hair cut. It's a bit long and messy. I like bri wear in dress. It looks comfortable and she is so gorgeous.

There had a typhoon few days ago. It was raining a lot ans was weird weather. It keep raining heavily 5 mins then stop. I don't want to wear the raincoat, so it rain I just stay on the roadside.

I think there are a lot of things to do. Mum is not ok tonight. Maybe there is something happened tomorrow morning. I have to go to government again, duck factory, new work, mos burger. And I wanna get alone. Sorry, maybe we can't call. I am really sorry. I love u so much, I really do, but I need a space. Sorry, I admit I am weak sometimes, forgive me. I am tired but I can't sleep. I will try to sleep. It's ok after this day. Don't worry.

Today I let my mum talk to bri. I know she must say something bad to her and hurt her. But I know bri still want to talk to her. I am struggle with this situation. My mum kept blaming bri and always said something bad. I saw bri cry and mum was unhappy. I know they should have a chance to talk and know each other. Maybe just bri knows, cuz my mum alwways misunderstand people. It's hard for me, but I still let them talk. Bri said she understand why mum is mad at her. Maybe someday bri will blame me that I can easily let our children leave us lol. But it's ok. I think that's why sister should have a brother by her side, because they need each other. I will make her feel safe and understand I still love them. I will let them go. It's hard for me, too. But my love for them is the same, it is just one way to become more and more I can give.

Bri stay up to talk to me every night. I am worried about her health, but I also wanna know how she is. If I was there, I would kiss her head and ask her to go to bed early. I wish I could hug her and fall asleep. I search may informations about going to Aus. I can't wait to see bri. I miss her so much. I can do anything for her. I need money to solve a lot of problems, but I know it's not a big deal and it is easy to work out. Because there are more important things. How can we use the gospel in our life? What should I do for someone I loved? No matter how tired I am, it will be worth when I see ur smile.

I will pray for u. I pray for u everyday

The night before yesterday it was raining heavily, so my friend CN, the married one, picks me up. We meet our friends at a ballad restaurant, but there is no seat. We decide to go to another one, TianPin restaurant. Everyone talk about the game stuff. My cell phone can't play the game, but I still know how to play and some informations. I aks CN share wifi for me, so I can connect Skype. I am happy bri is there. I stare at screen and chat with bri. My friend GuoShiu, handsome guy cuz girls want his phone number, ask me why I am so weird that I just keep smiling. Then he saw my phone screen. He told my friends ' Oh! someone fall for a girl, he is talking with his girlfriend.'  'We already know it, so give him a space and let him be sweet with his gf.' they said. Peishin, Guoshiu's cousin, she is curious when I speaking English. She pays attention to our talk. After dinner, we go to Donut to drink some tea. It's fun to spend time with them.

ShinRay, A-Shian,CN

I didn't notice that I have not refresh my blog for a week. Every morning I just try to get up early to talk to Bri. When I am free, I check the Skype, blog, fb, refresh them every minute. I wanna know where is Bri, what is Bri doing right now, How is Bri. I miss her so much. I found my last blog is on 8/8. It's Father's Day. Maybe it's my day two years later.

It's raining recently. After my work, I drive scooter home with no raincoat. It's comfortable. Today I almost get home, I drive to basement. Suddenly my scooter went into a skid because the tire is too old. Just one second. I slipped. My move is like doing push-up and I stand up straightaway. Then I feel my hands and legs are paining. I let my scooter lie on thee floor. I am ok now. It's strange. If I am working hard and get hurt, my wound healed quickly lol.

I have not writen blog for ages. It's inconvenient outside and I don't have cell phone. But I am free. The duck factory job is very tired. If u are not strong enough or had done that before, u wont stay there. I am weak and never work at factory before. But I stay there lol. I though Bri will be happy I get the job first. But she worried about me. I just rush into the work. Because it has a good pay. I need it, so I can save money quickly to find her. She cried for me because the work is too tiring. I am so stupid make her worry and cry. I should consider how her feeling is, I should. She knows I will do anything for her. But I have to do the good things not the stupid job. I hope she can enjoy the duck food after I quit the job. Duck is innocent.

I think about I talked to Bri last night. She is so beautiful. I love her so much. And she try to hug me. I close my eyes to feel her hug. It's so warm and comfortable. I still can feel that now.

There are many photos. Sorry.

On Monday morning. I go outside alone. Shut off the phone. Try to figure out something. But I dunno where I should start to find. Then I found a place where is beautiful and natural. I love it.